im just worried that i may loose u sama…ur my dream girl and ull always be till our studies is over d….

wont u takeaway me from this hellhole life of mine….wont u takeaway these tears from me,

i just want u to be with me, i guess its not something which u cant do …… i guess

I JUST CANT LIVE…..

i dont want to disturb u even….
but the pain, pain, pain inside me
cant control anymore
i pray today on my knees,
just to let happiness,
will always be there with u
i dont care about myself anymore
dont knw when im gonna be dead
but i want to see just a smile on your face

i cant live to see u, with some other guy
i may not bare that….
whenever i think of u, tears come out from my eyes
its realy painful…

but still i can live the memories u left behind………i know i love u… today i knew how painful this is…

Why does everyone hate everything I do?

People hate the way I act, the way I do things, the way I look,

But you shouldn’t judge by the cover of a book.  

People should accept others for who they really are,

And not make people want to change themselves.

I want to change the way I am or I’ll never be accepted.

I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore,

All I see is a thin ugly boy staring back at me,

And I’m wondering who is that ugly boy staring at me?

Then I realize and cry out in pain and disgust when I realize that ugly boy is me

These wounds I have can’t heal, for they’re too deep.

I’m falling deeper into this dark abyss,

These thoughts of pain, suicide, and death run through my mind aims.

I’m falling deeper into these dark thoughts of mine,

“Die”, “Do it now, no one will care”, and “You’re alone” keeps playing in my      

          mind.

I’m falling deeper into the darkness of my soul,

Where death takes over, it’s now in control.

Along my cheek are tears.

I can’t take living much longer,

Specially after what everyone has done to me.

I feel worthless and like I can’t do anything right,

I think about how I don’t matter each night.

The world and everyone in it would be better off without me,

I wouldn’t be missed one bit you’ll see.

Now I’m leaving this time for sure,

Nothing can stop me now anymore.

You’d understand if you look at what you do.

You complain about everything I do and make me feel like I do nothing right and I’m worthless.

Maybe if you told me that you were proud of me or tell me that I did something right I’d be better and wouldn’t harm myself as much, and maybe I’d be considered more “normal.”

I wait to see if things will get better, but they don’t, they remain the same.

Each and every night I want to die,

For no one will care no matter what everyone says, they lie,

I know they want me dead.

Can’t anyone see the pain they’re causing me?

Especially the ones who’ve mainly caused this for me.

I can’t handle this pain anymore,

I’ll be going through the door….

The door of death.

I hate the way I look.

Everyone hates me,

I don’t know why,

All I do at night is cry.

I hate how I have no friends,

Wanting to make it all end.

Maybe I will, just not now,

Maybe life will get better, but I seriously doubt that now.

I fear I don’t have much more time.

I’m about to explode, I give up on life.

Hated by many, for I’m a freak,

I’m emotionally unstable, I’m weak.

I cry everyday, for I don’t matter at all.

Not one person will notice I’m gone,

Yes, I know, this is wrong, but no reason to stay in this hellhole I’m gone.

I’m tired of playing this game.

Hated by others, considered a freak,

Everyday is a bad day each and every week.

Yelled at by parents, who are so cruel and mean,

Not free to do anything I please.

I hate my life, this game of life, and myself,