~ A Message 2 all ma frndz~

let ur feelings slipaway, let tears fill ur life..bt never trust any1

I Miss U So Much………

i just cant wait anymore…but wot to do d…..i have 2 wait until the time is right…..

im just worried that i may loose u sama…ur my dream girl and ull always be till our studies is over d….

My heart…

My heart is like molten metal, i feel within me……

IF…

If I dont love you so much, why would i disturb u sama…?????  will i ever begg u????????

A Small Question….

Sama, will u ever comeback to me?????

Listen….

Listen sama, this is no small thing: if u end this thing, I die.  Please try to think, it isnt over yet, anyways.
Was there a flash of a swift wing stroking, glistening to metal in that one clear day?
Strain, for I am straining so, for it is everything.  Wait!  as i know u,u never lies, And so ou said ull be with me, and you
will never hurt me, you have just now dropped something, you lean over …What is it?  What
is it?  I am fading,  I am.  These words, I swear it, are the only thing.  Did
you glimpse from the corner of even one fast eye in the moonlight, goddamn
it, you must feel this pain.If not ull never understand how i feels. In the mist, the faintest arch of a
silvery-pastel rainbow, as cool as the moonlight, near a cloud, full of tears, didn’t you
see it?  Can’t you hear what I’m crying, these tears i cant bare for….
wont u call me,wont u fullfill ur promise,
im just begging u only onething from this whole world,and its to give me happiness, something which others cant give, u only can give that…and i dont feel the same for others when i think of them….i tried to letgo, but i failed….

wont u takeaway me from this hellhole life of mine….wont u takeaway these tears from me,

i just want u to be with me, i guess its not something which u cant do …… i guess

I

I CANT LIVE WITHOUT U SAMA……….

I JUST CANT LIVE…..

my afflictive note

a strong scratching pain rotates inside my heart
don’t know what to do
don’t want to hurt u,
by knowing u dont love me

i dont want to disturb u even….
but the pain, pain, pain inside me
cant control anymore
i pray today on my knees,
just to let happiness,
will always be there with u
i dont care about myself anymore
dont knw when im gonna be dead
but i want to see just a smile on your face

i know i cant change anything,

but still im not free of u
u always come into me, a way that i dont even know how to tell
i have started to recognise things which aren’t realy there,
likewise i see u
but knowing that now u realy dont love me,
i just dont want to talk about my feelings anymore,
coz it aint gonna change anything,
i just dont know wot to do

i cant live to see u, with some other guy
i may not bare that….
whenever i think of u, tears come out from my eyes
its realy painful…

but still i can live the memories u left behind………i know i love u… today i knew how painful this is…

Why ??????

Why is the world so cruel?

Why does everyone hate everything I do?

People hate the way I act, the way I do things, the way I look,

But you shouldn’t judge by the cover of a book.  

People should accept others for who they really are,

And not make people want to change themselves.

I want to change the way I am or I’ll never be accepted.

I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore,

All I see is a thin ugly boy staring back at me,

And I’m wondering who is that ugly boy staring at me?

Then I realize and cry out in pain and disgust when I realize that ugly boy is me

Falling Deeper…..

I’m falling deeper into an eternal sleep,

These wounds I have can’t heal, for they’re too deep.

I’m falling deeper into this dark abyss,

These thoughts of pain, suicide, and death run through my mind aims.

I’m falling deeper into these dark thoughts of mine,

“Die”, “Do it now, no one will care”, and “You’re alone” keeps playing in my      

          mind.

I’m falling deeper into the darkness of my soul,

Where death takes over, it’s now in control.

no 1 cn stop me

A line of red appears,

Along my cheek are tears.

I can’t take living much longer,

Specially after what everyone has done to me.

I feel worthless and like I can’t do anything right,

I think about how I don’t matter each night.

The world and everyone in it would be better off without me,

I wouldn’t be missed one bit you’ll see.

Now I’m leaving this time for sure,

Nothing can stop me now anymore.

To those who cause me pain

You wonder why I harm myself and feel the way I do,

You’d understand if you look at what you do.

You complain about everything I do and make me feel like I do nothing right and I’m worthless.

Maybe if you told me that you were proud of me or tell me that I did something right I’d be better and wouldn’t harm myself as much, and maybe I’d be considered more “normal.”

de door f death

Each and every night I cry a river from my pain,

I wait to see if things will get better, but they don’t, they remain the same.

Each and every night I want to die,

For no one will care no matter what everyone says, they lie,

I know they want me dead.

Can’t anyone see the pain they’re causing me?

Especially the ones who’ve mainly caused this for me.

I can’t handle this pain anymore,

I’ll be going through the door….

The door of death.

I hate hu i am

I hate who I am,

I hate the way I look.

Everyone hates me,

I don’t know why,

All I do at night is cry.

I hate how I have no friends,

Wanting to make it all end.

Maybe I will, just not now,

Maybe life will get better, but I seriously doubt that now.

Hellohole life of mine

Living in this hellohole life of mine,

I fear I don’t have much more time.

I’m about to explode, I give up on life.

Hated by many, for I’m a freak,

I’m emotionally unstable, I’m weak.

I cry everyday, for I don’t matter at all.

Not one person will notice I’m gone,

Yes, I know, this is wrong, but no reason to stay in this hellhole I’m gone.

ma life sucks

Life sucks, Life is lame,

I’m tired of playing this game.

Hated by others, considered a freak,

Everyday is a bad day each and every week.

Yelled at by parents, who are so cruel and mean,

Not free to do anything I please.

I hate my life, this game of life, and myself,